PER_PLEXITY

I no longer know
how to copy down
my thoughts

tangled with cords
books, papers, charts
articles, graphs, tables
very
wise words

evenings feinted
the orange twilight
with a glass of wine

rocked.
undressed.
drunk.
pulverized.
tedious.

Applied Astrology

M: I wonder in which House your Pluto is.
Asia: I keep it in my parent's garage.
M: I hope it's on a solid leash.
Asia: Chained and muzzled.

Piece of Happiness

I lost myself
in the labyrinth of life
In morass of causes
In jungle of the world
Helplessly looking for the exit
The way to the light
Hearth speeds its rhythm up
Tears out
No
It's calm.
I know
You will find me.

I found you.
In the silence of an evening
the world dozing off
In the morning dew
Gleaming on the grass
In the ascending sun
I found You.
undisturbed peace.
And a piece of happiness.

Life is better with two scoops of....

Turns out, family and friends just are. Just like that.
Not there, where I was looking for them in the past twenty seven years, but here.
Next to me. Always.
They stood, behind me, looking with horror
When I was casting the ropeon a bluffy, full of falling rocks mountainside.
Mulishly try to climb it. Barefoot. Barehands. Till they bleed.
Deaf and blind to everything.

Now, that I drop behind
When abseiled on an avalanche of sharp rocks
My very own, personal Volunteer Mountain Rescue Service
Doesnt allow me to loose my warmth
Nesteld in air tight heat foil- I drink tea with electricity
And they kindle around me, dozens of small bon fires.

I throw into fire everything, that is not needed
looking silently how it shrinks, wads, crumbles, fragments, and disappears
Everything, that hurts, and I am afraid of, that poisons and spoils
Sitting amidst those, dashing starfish, like on a raft, on sea,
Sway lightly and gently, in a moment sail more
I never expected they were so close, and feel so....warm.

With You

(...with a special dedication to Ash and Drew)

Light,
Just like nightingale's song
Warm,
Like desert's rain
Your words could be like that
Embracing me in the arms of a dream
Protecting from the lack of breath

You're gone
For over an hour now
Ungrateful fate changes clock's hands
It's so hard to start a day
I hold You close
I want to feel
Feel You embracing me
I want to know
That it happened

I found myself
In You
You are present
In every moment
that surrounds me
I do remember an instant
Where you told me
That You love me
You want only me
With You
Forever.